Thursday, December 17, 2009

on to happier things

A few nights ago I stayed the night at my friend Annas house. In the morning I got up about 45 minutes before she did and I laid awake thinking about some of the people in my life. I know a lot of good people. Sweet, kind, generous people. As I thought about them, I expressed my desire to be more like them, to God. I thought, "I'd like to be a sweet person. I don't think that would be a word anyone would use to describe me...other good things possibly, but not sweet. (now don't get me wrong, I don't mean sweet in a "Oh she's just the sweetest thing" kind of way. Just in the way that I'd like my demeanor and immediate reactions to things to be more kind and loving. I'd like to be more approachable I guess would be a good way of putting it. I didn't have to explain all this to God of course. He knew what I meant. That's one of the reasons why I like him so much. ;) After I expressed these things, the verse that says "Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks" so gracefully and lovingly came to mind. It was as if He was saying, "If you want to be better at these things, fill your heart with me. I'd love to help you."

Needless to say, the rest of that day was great. :) It was the second time in my life where I felt, and could clearly identify the presence of Christ' joy in my little heart....hahaha! I don't think I could have made that ANY cheesier. Mission accomplished! ;)

Oh, and in case you were wondering, the first time I ever really felt that joy, had a little something to do with these people. :)


Anna Kristine said...

All these wonderful thoughts and feelings and then Anna wakes up with mad hair and angry eyes and is like "roar". "I'm hungry."

I love you Becks. :)

chris and annie said...

"of course, I didn't have to explain all of this to God, He already knew...that's why I like him..." tee-hee!!! You ARE the sweetest girl, Beckah. I learn so much about loyalty and generosity and kindness from you, you don't even realize. I LOVE your blogs so much!! They make me happy, and to know I had even a teensy bit in making your little heart feel joy (I think it's a BIG heart, but that's just me...) makes my heart feel so glad!!
I love you tremendously.