a blog I wrote a long time ago but never posted...

"I am scared
I'm afraid
Mercy me
With Your grace
My heart said in brokenness
I want to see Your face
Don't You hide
Don't You leave
Don't You turn
Away from me

‘Cause if You go I'll be forsaken
Who will be my souls salvation

Lord, hear my cry, hear my heart
Here I come to where You are
I'll be there for You
You'll be there for me
Lord, though I'm weak, You are strong
So I'll go back where I belong
And You'll be there for me
I'll be there for You
You'll be there for me

Answer me
In my place
You told me
To seek Your face
My heart spoke with heaviness
Your face I will seek
Don't give up
Don't forget
Remember me
I won't quit
What good am I if I'm not taken
And who am I without salvation

Lord, hear my cry, hear my heart
Here I come to where You are
I'll be there for You
You'll be there for me
Lord, though I'm weak, You are strong
So I'll go back where I belong
And You'll be there for me
I'll be there for You
You'll be there for me"

These are the lyrics to a song by Above The Golden State called "Scared"
It's a pretty awesome song. I don't know about you, but its such a familiar prayer for me. Not word for word of course, but the feeling of failure and worry of the consequences that you fear will inevitably follow, is something I'm familiar with. But I realize more and more that its in those times when you can really feel Gods love. Its in those times that you become truly thankful that Christ paid the ultimate price for your sin. Its mind blowing. I think of all the mistakes I make and all the times where, knowing full well that what I was doing was wrong, I did it anyway. I always think of this quote when I fall short: "When you flee temptation, don't leave a forwarding address." How often do we give into temptation and then swear that we'll never do it again only to put ourselves right back in the same situation that got us there in the first place? It's funny how when we want to do something sinful we'll forsake all knowledge of it being wrong, and not take the exits God says he provides. We somehow convince ourselves that it's not sin, or "God made me this way", or something equally ridiculous. Who knows...Human nature is a funny thing.

adventure....ish

So yesterday I went to a bible study in Powell Butte that my sister in-law had invited me to. Well, since I live about a half hour away I had to get up a bit early, and because of this, I wanted a coffee. So here was my logic: I figured that if I got up at 7:20 and left at 8:00 I could have some breakfast before I left. And seeing as Powell Butte doesn't have a dutch bros. Or any other form of coffee place for that matter, I knew that I would need to go to town for the coffee. So, I thought that if I left at 8 it would take me about 20 or 30 minutes to get to town, get the coffee, and get back to powell butte highway. Well, I left a tad early for whatever reason and by 8:07 I had gotten my coffee and was on my way back to the highway. By 8:15 I was passing the turn off to my house and I thought, "I should just go home and wait the extra 15 minutes that I have instead of just driving out there right now". Well I didn't do that. So, By 8:30 I was almost to the church, (45 minutes early) so I thought I would just go explore some of the roads I had never been on. This is what I found:


These baby cows were just chilling outside the fence..one of them coughed at me...I didn't even know cows could cough. ha. ;)


So yes, That was my Wednesday morning adventure. Exciting eh?
wow, I just wrote a really long blog about almost nothing...and put pictures of cows in it....thats so retarded.

=)

I thought this picture was kinda cool....Anna gave me the England sticker to put on my car, but I haven't done it yet...Maybe this summer? :) And then you have my nice messy bed in the background.